.me & my world.

Jumat, 30 Juli 2010Y

a birthday give from my daddy J

heyy all :)

i haven't updated this blog quite long and i really have a lot to say here. hmm, idk where to start but let me tell you something important.

i am now in a relationship! :D:D

too fast you think?

i think so.

i dont know i think this is not what we really decide exactly but its just happen like that. i'm not gonna write down the story here, becausee its quite private hehe.. the point is, we like each other since first time we met. and we really think that it is GOD who wants us to meet. so i'm not scared even we're miles apart.. i trust him, moreover, i trust GOD who has a beautiful plan for us. i dont know the beautiful plan is to make us together or not, but i do know,

He always gives us the best :)

thankyou GOD!

and please take care of BENZ sasongko for me ;)

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Selasa, 27 Juli 2010Y

18th bday celebration

good eveningg all :D

hari minggu kemarin aku abis ngerayain ultah ke-18 di Panti Asuhan Bakti Luhur. Bersyukur karena acara yang menurutku persiapannya kurang mateng ini berjalan dengan lancar dan setiap org yang ikut melayani mendapatkan pelajaran berharga. Pertama kali dateng sana kita langsung ngangkatin barang dan anak2 panti udah kumpul di aula yang cukup gede lah ya. hampir 75% orang di situ cacat, baik fisik maupun mental. kasian banget. but amazing-nya itu ketika disuruh memuji Tuhan, mereka nyanyi dengan keras dan afal semua lagunya. Praise the Lord for that. They can say that God is good, even dengan keadaan mereka yang seperti itu. Nah, their thankful heart made us realized that we are much more lucky than they are. Kita punya rumah, punya org tua, saudara dan terutama kita juga sehat walafiat but most of the time we never thank God for this. Semua yang ikut melayani hari minggu kemaren bener-bener dapet pelajaran baru. ada yang mau lebih giat pelayanan lah, ada yang mau lebih bersyukur lah, yahh. memang buat ngebales yg udah kita terima dari Tuhan, we have to thank God for everything that He has given to us, from the biggest thing until the smallest one and of course kita juga harus selalu do the best for God's glory.

hope i can be a better one as i grow older :)

her left eye is blind, but still she can praise God :)

this is the TEAM :D

up: papa, mama, me, ling2, martep, danny, oh, vania, andianto, christian, benz

down: novianus, tommy, nico, ando, ming2, kenji, endi, michae

the cute photographer, benz sasongko ;p

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Jumat, 23 Juli 2010Y

a seed of love :p

i need to share some things here :p

malu sih :#)

so..

i'm accidently in love.

maybe not yet a love.

but there's a seed.

i think its not only an emotion.

because i got a strong instant chemistry LOL.

even i havent known him that long.

i just feel a lil bit sure about this.

the seed might grow.

but let noone grow it except HIM.

i'm giving it up on You, J! :)

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Rabu, 21 Juli 2010Y

YOU'RE MY FATHER

You Are My Father

artist: True Worshipper

Album: Glory to Glory

It doesn't matter where I run
You're there for me
It doesn't matter what I've done
Your love's for me

You wipe away the tear
You lift me when I fall
My life is save
By the mercy of Your grace

It doesn't matter where I go
You'll walk with me
It doesn't matter when I fall
You'll cover me

You're my father
Provider
You're my deliverer
Your mercy embrace me
Surround me
Through Your everlasting love

Father I worship You
Father I worship You

And Your love is for me

And Your love is for me

And Your love is forever

from the first time i listen to this song, my heart trembled and i almost cried. lagu ini bener-bener gambarin kita semua. kita sering kali menjauh dari Tuhan, tapi Dia selalu ada buat kita. Apapun yang udah kita perbuat, kasihNya selalu ada buat kita. Ke manapun kita pergi, Dia akan selalu berjalan bersama kita. Dan kalau kita jatuh, Dia yg selalu menopang kita. Our GOD is really great and faithfull. Dia akan selalu ada buat kita, no matter what. He is a faithfull GOD. His love is for us and forver for us.

click here to listen and see the video.

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13 juli kemaren, i'm officially 18 :D

thank GOD so muchh for all his love and care which never been less from the day i was born till now. thank GOD so much that he always stays beside me no matter what happen to my life, even sometimes i became unfaithfull, but HE is always faithfull to me. God is good, He is great all the time. and trust me, if me keep on hoping and believing Him, he will never ever make us disappointed. we can keep HIS words :)

selasa kemaren, aku sempat stres. masa sih ultah pas ospek, pdahal selama ini ultahku itu selalu libur dan at least aku pergi jalan2 sama temen, makan2 sama keluarga gitu. tp ini aku harus bangun jam 5 pagi dan berangkat ospek. sedihnya hati iinii. mana di kelompok ospek ku ngga ada yang tau lagi kalo aku ultah. cmn temen2 yg deket aja yang kasi aku bday wishes. ok dehh, aku menjalani hari ultah kelabu dengan sangat berat hati dan kena rekap pas ospek! pulang jam 5an, dijemput papa. terus thank GOD! aku diajak makan sama papa mama koko hehehe.. tp aku agak bingung juga sih, kenapa nih my besties ga ngasi aku happy birthday gitu lah paling ga walopun aku jg ga ngarepin dikasi surprise sih hihi. nahh, setelah makan malemm kan pulang. terus aku jam 9 udah mau tidur. ehhh mama bilang. jangan tidur dulu! aku uda rada curiga. kenapa coba ga boleh tidur. teruss ga lama kemudian, papa nyuruh aku ke kamarnya buat ngebenerin dvd. 15 menit kemudian aku disuruh tidur. ya oke dehh aku tidur. sesampainya di kamar.....

kamarku lampunya mati.

ada cupcakes di ranjang n ada lilin ultah.

hehehe!! aku kageet bangeet.. mana temen2 gak ada di kamar lagi. aku cari2 ke luar kamar dan ternyata ketemu mreka di kamar koko! hehehe.. asikk dehh terus aku make a wish, tiup lilin dan kita foto fotooooo.. ngoceh2 juga sih sampe jam 11 an gitu baru mreka pulang. aku nguantukk banget sih waktu itu, tapi ga boong nehh.. aku juga seneneeg bangeeet!!

Thank You EVE :)

LOVE you ALL

friends forever!

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Senin, 19 Juli 2010Y

P3KMABA 2010

hellloooww guyyss!!!:D:D:D

i'm back from the torturee..

and i'm ready for telling what i've been through ;)

day1

hari pertama ospek, bangun jam 4 kurang. sampe ukp jam stg6 lebih. dijemur di lapangan apel. hari pertama ada kelas kecil, welcome party, nahh aku dapet kelompok hari pertama rada ga suka. kayae ga enak gitu. tapi ya aku belajar buat percaya kalo semua yg uda Tuhan kasi itu yang terbaik, termasuk di kelompok ini. terus hari pertama itu kita buat keplek dan buat buku perkenalan. walaupun salah2 akhirnya selesai. terus tunggu di TT luamaa, terus dilaminating. pulang dari ukp jam 7an, ga bisa sel group deh :"(

day2

13julyy!! my birthdayy!! tapi this is the most boring day in the whole week.. bosen pool, masa kerjaannya cuma di kelas, sesi curhat sharing gitu2 ma ngomongin materi. nah untungnya frontline ku itu orang nya baekkk, emang sih rada cupu gitu tapi orgnya baek banget :) i started to love my group :)

day 3

aku lupa hari ini ada apa! hahaha :p pokoknya ada TT buku perkenalan sampe berkeringat dan mambuu ckckck.. oiaa hari ini juga aku paling ga bergairah gara2 kemaren pas aku ultah itu temen2 ke rumah sampe jam 11an, jd aku br tidur jam 11 bangun jam 4 apanya ga teler setengah mampuss..!?

day4

hari keempat ada rally kampuss.. ini nihh yg seru dan kerasa dehh kalo kelompokku itu enakk.. hehehe. tuh kan bener, semuanya harus disyukuri, termasuk kelompok ini. kita buat yel2, meskipun ga oke2 banget tapi yaa boleh lahh.. kelompokku main game juga lumayan beberapa kali menang gitu. rally nya seru, jadi hari ke4 itu paling enak, ga ngebetein. paginya juga ada open house UKM, aku masukin form berminat ama UKM selam n UKM fotografi. tapii kata papa ga boleh UKM selam nanti aku hilang hiksss...

day 5

hari kelima ada seminar wawasan kebangsaan. seminarnya ada org2 terkenal. lumayan kagum sih.. hehhe. meskipun agak boring. tapi aku mulai enjoy ama anak2 arsitekk,, cihuyy! new friends :) terus sorenya disuruh menghias glangsing. nah ini yang aku suka! bikin tulisan di glangsing : tempat sampah apaa gitu terus digambar sesuai kreativitas. dan thank GOD bangett aku pulangnya bisa jam 5 so aku bisa ikutan Doa maleemm :D

day 6

hari keenam itu hari ga niat. haha. ada test materi 1 jam an gitu. terus nganggur2, curhat2 sharing2 sampe tunggu sorean terus ada sesi tanda tangan. ga seru lahh.. haha

day 7

and finallyy.. its the end of p3kmaba. todayyy im freee!!! rasanya sueneng banget. tadi di kampus acaranya talent show yang cukup menghibur dan ada closing ceremony, dekornya okee banget. tapi acaranya sedikit membuat ngantuk. tapi overall oke lahh :D

nah selama rangkaian p3kmaba, aku kena 3x rekap.

1. karet rambut ku ga standard, aku salah liat pengumuman ternyata wkwkw. (day1)

2. menerobos jalur rafia. bodonyaa, aku uda diperingatin sih, tapi ngelanggar lagi gara2 lupa. konyooll lahh ckckck (day2)

3. folioku ada tulisan data ttg seminar dan direkap. ahhh, mestinya aku tau sih tapi mls mindah ke buku hihihi. soalnya jumat aku pulang aga malem dari doa mlm (day6)

yahh overall, p3kmaba bikin capek bikin bete, bikin orang emosi. tapi ya emang si pasti ada hikmahnya. paling ga aku dapet temen2 baru, bisa saling menerima dan mengerti teman-teman sekelompok dan yang pasti menyesuaikan diri :)

this is my group, kenzo tange.

thanks guys for this one week.

i enjoy that!:)

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Minggu, 11 Juli 2010Y

ysf 2010 : GOD's force

syallooommm!!

ceilehh hahha. mentang2 abis pulang retreat neh ngomongnya syaloomm :p pertanyaannya adalahh. gimana retreatnya? jawabannya: AMAZING! hehehe.. baguss bener dehh.. aku dapet banyak hal d sana. yepp, temanya adalah GOD's force yg berarti tentara Allah, laskar Kristus dan sebagainya. di retreat ini bener2 kayaknya aku disadarin lagi kalo setiap kita itu adalah tentara Allah. tiap hari kita harus berperang lawan dunia ini. dunia skarang jahat! banyak banget hal yg bisa bikin kita jatuhh.. tapi kita harus mau tetep setia jadi laskar Kristus!! emang di awal mungkin susah dan ga enak banget apalagi kalo dibilang temen kita sok suci ckckck.. tp biarin lah org mau bilang apa. karena kita emang harus bayar harga kalo mau dapetin janji Tuhann dlm hidup kita. AMIN sodara2?? wkkwkw.. yah yang penting sekarang setelah retreat ini aku mau komitmen lebih lagi:

1. i wanna love him with all my heart

2. i wanna give my best to HIM, my time, my heart and my life :)

3. i wanna stop worrying every lil thing in my life.

semoga bisa aku lakuin. AMINN!!!

ini kelompok ku : St. Tarcisius :)

ini decornya keren kann?? tuh yg di depan semua panitia. thanks for your hard work comitee!! may GOD bless you, alwayyss!

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Kamis, 08 Juli 2010Y

busy busy busy

hello ma friend!!

im going to be veryy busy from tomorrow until 19th July..

bsk ada tes psikologi di uk petra trus aku lgsg retrett, asooyy!! GOD is good. p3k maba nya ga disuruh bikin aneh2, cmn beli2 barang kayak rafia, benang, dll. dan katanya sih atributnya di buat waktu hari pertama ospek. great then i've no worriess.. semuanya uda titip mama yg lagi jalan2 ke atom. nahh skrg tugasku tinggal packing baju dan jaga kesehatan hehehe. hmm, semoga ntar abis retreat tetep sehat2 aja supaya senen dpn bisa ikut ospek dengan baiikk...

anywayy, modelku nggilani soro pasti wkt ospek. rambut harus dikuncir (ok sih yg ini), tapii.. poni ga boleh melebihi alis. lah poniku itu diatas alis dikiitt.. tp berhubung aku males kena hukuman, aku berniat ngejepit poniku ke belakang. GOD!! aku ga mbayangin pasti jijik banget tampangku, haha.. diplontoss, geezz.. aku paling ngga pernah diplontos. mending jerawatan dehh! juelek abis sehh soalee lek ga ada poniee haha. nah dan 1 lg yg nyebelin. kontak lens ga boleh berwarna!! yahh, drpd beli soflen bening mahal2 mending pake kacamata dahh!! biarin wes jadi ueleekk gitu. yg penting baik hati(Lho?! ga nyambung! hahaha)

bakalan ga bisa update neh, psti cape banget dan sibuk banget. tapi hari kedua ospek aku ulang tahun lhooo!! 13 juli hehehe, semoga ga dikerjain aneh2. pengen apa ya aku ultahh? ga pengen something specific sehh.. cmn pengen bisa bberubah jadi tambah dewasa, rendah hati dan lemah lembut. ceileeehhh... LOL. ada lagi sih, semoga di kuliah bisa make friends, jd org baik dan yg penting sukses kuliahnyaa...

anyway, udah dulu ya, aku harus packing nehh..

see you guysss!

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Senin, 05 Juli 2010Y

waktu cepat berlalu

waktu bener-bener cepet berlalu.

waktu april libur itu ta kira liburan bakal ngapain aja yaa.. pst bosen buangettt, ga ada kerjaan. ehh, ternyata salah!! liburan banyak banget yang dikerjain dan bener-bener ga terasa sebentar lagi liburannya over, hiks hiks.. besok aku udah mulai pengarahan maba lhooo..

gua udah mahasiswa lho!

keren ga tuhh?!

hahahha :D

kerasa cepet banget. kynya baruu aja masuk sma, eh sekarang udah mau kuliah euy! besok udah mulai pengarahan maba, tgl 8 ada pengenalan puskom dll n tgl 9 ada tes kepribadian. nahh, ini nih yang bikin bingung.. aku tgl 9-11 ada Youth Spiritual Fellowship. duuhh, semoga besok pas pengarahan dikasi tau semua apa yg perlu dibuat buat p3kmaba dan hopefully aku bisa nyelesaiin dlm waktu 2 hari supaya ikutan ysf.. i really dont wanna miss it!! ><"

entering university..

i'll surely start it in GOD.

asking for His guidence,

so that i'll never walk outside His track.

asking for His caring hands,

so that i can do anything for HIS glory.

because i know,

nothing is ever impossible in HIM.

I'M POSSIBLE :)

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Minggu, 04 Juli 2010Y

is it weird if i miss you?

last week i thought about something.

a friend of mine, went away for about a week.

i wonder..

how if i miss him?

yeah i know its weird.

we were just friend.

i didnt really look for another one, since i brake up.

and i never thought that he's the one for me.

a week past..

and yes, i do miss him.

maybe i missed arguing with him.

and i missed sharing my things with him.

anyway..

if i just missed my friend,

its not too much.

am i right?

i miss you BEST FRIEND!

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Kamis, 01 Juli 2010Y

god's boxes

God's Boxes

I have in my hands two boxes,
Which God gave me to hold.
He said, "Put all your sorrows in the black box,
And all your joys in the gold."
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I heeded His words, and in the two boxes,
Both my joys and sorrows I stored,
But though the gold became heavier each day,
The black was as light as before.

With curiosity, I opened the black,
I wanted to find out why,
And I saw, in the base of the box, a hole,
Which my sorrows had fallen out by.

I showed the hole to God, and mused,
"I wonder where my sorrows could be!"
He smiled a gentle smile and said,
"My child, they're all here with Me.."

I asked God, why He gave me the boxes,
Why the gold and the black with the hole?
"My child, the gold is for you to count your blessings,
The black is for you to let go."

taken from : http://renungan-harian-kita.blogspot.com

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