I've been thinking a lot lately. I looked back to my past. there are so many things that disappoint me. when i was younger, i had lots of dreams and i used to believe that i could reach all of them. but as i grew up, i learn to accept that everything is not as easy as what i used to dream :| disappointments started to root inside me, and it grew up as time went by.
just now i started to sort all of them, one by one. and i couldnt help myself its like i wanna scream, "why GOD? why do i have to live like this, everyone could get what they've been dreaming of, but why not me?" i really hate to admit that the disappointments inside grows me a scar. i've been trying to forget and forgive myself for being like this but there are times when it comes all over again.
but then, i got a really touching GOD'S WORD.
"because the Lord disciplines the one He loves, and He chastens everyone He accepts as His son." - Hebrews 12:6
isnt that amazing? maybe, i hv to face all of these bcs thats the way He wanna shape me. the way He wanna change me to be a better one. i never know what my future brings, i also dont know where or what i'm going through bcs its like walking in the dark, but one thing i know for sure. God is my guide, He is the light of my life, He is such a great God. He disciplines me, because He loves me. He didnt give me what i want because i believe He gives me whats best for me. He said that He'll give us a future filled with hopes, and i know He mean it. and i keep reminding myself: everything'll be great at the end, if its not then its not the end :)
THE BEST IS YET TO COME ;)
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