its been 4 years ini alkitab jadi punyaku. well its not the years that make it important. but the years remind me of how long i've been walking with God. i still remember that old days, when i used to cry every nite and prayed for my family, how things went so wrong inside my home. home feels like hell, and everything is messed up. i become an extrovert person, noone cares abt me. its only Jesus, yeah Jesus who understands me. when i cried out loud, there's always something in my heart told me that everything is gonna be okay. i really dont know how'd everything gonna be okay when all i saw was mess!

but time answers it all.

people you'll never imagine how FAITHFUL is our God. really. every single word He said in the bible is true for those who believe.

day by day He fulfill His promise to me and my family. remember one thing, when u pray to Him and everything just stay the same, nothing changes, your life still sucks, its not God doesnt answer ur prayer but He asks you to wait until His time come and He'll make it perfect. So when everything's still sucks, He hasnt finished His work. trust me!

simple case in my family : my dad and my brother used to hate each other so much! really.. i dont even know why but its true that my dad loves me more than he loves my brother. otomatis lah kokoku jengkel setengah mati. mereka suka tengkar dan tengkarnya parah! my mom and me keep praying for them, beneran deh kayaknya mustahil kalo hubungan mereka bisa pulih. tapi ga ada salahnya terus doa.. sehari dua hari, seminggu, dua minggu, sebulan, lima bulan, setahun, dua tahun, ga ada jawaban. everything's still sucks. masuk ke tahun ke-3, ada sedikit perubahan, mereka sempet minta maaf satu sama lain dan aku ngerasa kalo oh thanks God mereka udah dipulihkan. tapi ternyata enggak gitu.. tengkar lagi, damai lagi, tengkar lagi. its like my mom is about to give up on this case. but i know she kept praying and me either. and you know what. in the 4th year, pemulihan bener-bener terjadi dan kali ini pemulihan itu nyata. abt 10mths ago, mereka berdua lagi di rumah dan abis tengkar hebat, mama waktu itu ninggal mereka pergi somewhere gitu. dan di situlah Tuhan mulai bekerja dengan caranya yang luar biasa. dari tengkar yang hebat itu Dia bs mengubah menjadi sebuah pemulihan. they were having heart to heart talk, about the past, how my brother hates my dad bcs he didnt like the way my dad punish him over his mistakes, how my dad loves him bt my dad just didnt know how to express it etc. they're now having a very great relationship. bahkan koko skrg yg plg deket sama papa. :)

masih banyaaaaak banget pemulihan yang terjadi setelah aku ikut Tuhan. Emang ga gampang. waktu kita ikut Tuhan, Dia ga jamin kalo kita ga bakal punya masalah, tapi dari setiap permasalahan itu Dia janjiin penyertaanNya. dan setiap permasalahan kita yang belum nemuin titik terang, PERCAYA! He's on his way to make it perfect. Tuhan itu setiiiaaa banget kok sama kita, walopunn most of the time kita itu ga setia ke Dia :(

anyway, i just wanna say that walking with Jesus is really amazing! really, everything can walk away from your life, everything can changes, people changes, things change, but one thing that'll never change forever and ever, its THE LOVE OF JESUS, OUR GOD AND SAVIOUR.

may this post could be a bless!

nighty nite!